Always Going Forward

True Romance movie thoughts

2011-12-27T20:30:00.000-08:00

So I'm going to try to do mini reviews or something similar for the movies I watch. I've been reading markwatches.net a lot lately and I love them, and it's inspiring me to start writing more.

Spoilers ahoy.

So I didn't know anything a out True Romance except that David had seen it before and remembered it. I recognized a good amount of names at the beginning, so that made me a bit more interested. It's written by Tarintino, but not directed by him. But there are so many lungful references and just..weirdness that it does make me think of him. I'm unsure if I would've made the connection without seeing his name thou.

The plot is surprising at first and makes me think of natural born killers, but not as crazy a couple. Still pretty crazy. Getting married after one night? Love so soon? I don't know if I missed the wedding or it s skipped, which is a surprising thing to not show on the screen. I like how it seems very natural almost. It feels unplanned instead of a standard movie plot. Usually I can guess what's going to happen but I wasn't sure.

I loved the random crazy Elvis talking to Clarence. I know it's Val Kilmer but I'm pretty sure you ever see his face, because he's not Val Kilmer. He is Elvis, and he helps Clarence. In the credits he is listed as Mentor. It makes me happy.

There were a few times when I shouted at the TV. Sometimes the characters need to just to listen to me!!

The climax was good. Everything coming together. The image of the room covered with floating feathers and coke and blood made is seem fantastical.

The ending was good and happy and funny. Life goes on, and I love her narration about what she would have done if he had died. She would have wanted to die, and then that would have faded, and she would've moved on with her life. A movie called true romance, that is HONEST! Makes me think of Tim Minchin and his song if I didn't have you... I would have someone else.

Overall a good movie. It fits somewhere above the "only watch on TV if it's on" and "would be cool to own" rating

2011-05-30T20:47:00.000-07:00

I'm extremely sleepy from my long happy weekend, but I should blog because I said I would. And because I see something on twitter that makes me happy.
Amanda Palmer somehow started a twitter tag for #FuckPlanB. One of the quotes that makes me happy:

@gemini_scorpio ...because even failing plan a spectacularly is better than half-assing it from behind plan b.

I saw another that said something like 'once I figure out plan a first...' which feels way closer to what is going through my head. I'm too cautious, I worry about what if this or that doesn't work, I don't think I even look at plan a unless I have plans b c and d, and by that point I'm so tired and worn out from plan 'get by while i figure out a plan' that I need to start over. I want to stop that. I want to sit down and figure out what I want to be when I grow up. What would make me happy. There is a big part of me that is dying to run out and jump into something head first w/out looking behind me and being scared, and the rest of me is terrified at all the what-ifs. Job, love, family, friends, everything, I want to figure out what i want and run for it without any fears. Plan b is all those fears. Fuck plan b.

2011-05-22T19:33:00.000-07:00

Going to start blogging again. Will aim for every few days.

I forgot how much I used to to do this. It's very odd going back and looking at my GIST stuff, it feels like a different person wrote those.

I wonder if i should limit this to just friends. Should I link it on twitter. Will people click it. Questions, questions.

So this weekend I saw Lost Boys, that famous 80s vamp movie w/ the Coreys. It was pretty typical 80s, funny, cheesy, action-y, random sex scene w/ wispy curtains-y. I can understand why people like it, but it almost seems like a novelty in some ways. I like... funny movies, but with a heart. This was... like a short story that was neat but I didn't really care what happened. I'm not sure if that's cuz it was old and doesn't seem..serious or not. It's similar to what I feel when I watch orig star wars. It's so big and famous and...so known that it makes me not get invested in the movie at all. Even if I don't know what's going to happen, I feel like I do and I'm over it. Part of me greatly dislikes this attitude since it means I'm not getting 'into' the movie, and I really like escaping and feeling like I'm 'in' it.

But it was still fun to watch regardless. And the company was good.

Schedule for life

2010-11-03T21:38:00.000-07:00

So I've been insanely intensely depressed lately, and I need to fix it. I don't know how, because I just don't like to talk about it with anyone. All they could tell me is default crap that I already know. I will get over it, just need time, this is life, other people have it worse, bla bla bla. I don't want to hear it, I tell it to myself and it doesn't help, hearing it from others is just condescending.

So I want to change. I don't know how, cuz I just sit and watch tv and get sad. So I will make a schedule and stick to it. I have no clue who reads this, but if you do, yell at me to stick to this.

Weekday:
6am : wake up and eat breakfast, leave for work no later than 6:40
do that work thang here
home by 4:30-5, lets assume 5
5 - 6 exercise in exercise room by apts (1 hr)
6 - 6:30 shower (.5 hr)
6:30 - 7:30 cook & eat, maybe start cooking before shower or something (1 hr)
7:30 - 8:30 study programming (1 hr)
8:30 - 9 clean (.5 hr)
9 - 9:30 self improvement (.5 hr)
9:30 - 10:30 overage/games/tv

Tuesday is Glee day, so all this is skipped.
Thursday is Langels day, exercise is cut to half hour so I'm not late
Saturday is the same, everything just starts at noon, and MUST include some kind of social interaction somewhere, even if it's only a phone call.
Sunday is planning day. Shopping/prepping meals for the week, meal planning for the next week.

Plans can change any day to include whatever, just try to stick to the exercise and study prog at least. And the eating thing. That helps.

explanations:
exercise will include podcasts/books on tape via mp3
study programming will be reading python books, playing w/ my own personal website (dev, not content or anything), basically learning linux and coding
clean will be cleaning apt, decorating, vacuuming, dishwashering, whatevers. hopefully this will decrease as i get better at it
self improvement means blogging, writing reviews (vain goal), crafting (x-stitch, papercraft)

So yea. That'll work. I just have to stick to it. Must stick to it.

2010-08-26T21:01:00.000-07:00

I want to be positive and post more grace in small things, and hopefully remember to always cross-post on the other side (blogger and ning buttons that automate my copy/paste would rock. I should make that).

Today I am happy about:
1. Getting more sleep and having my head/tummy feel way better by the end of the day
2. Jim feeling better and sleeping through the night finally
3. Being right about the # tag in jquery not being ajax-related, though that doesn't fix the problem
4. Watching some Burn Notice on tv and liking it's style a lot
5. Organizing my kitchen using and old desk organizer

2010-08-05T20:06:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow my work will be in a whole new office. One next door.

I work for an awesome company and we live in our 'parents' basement (our corporate company). We've been pretty full for awhile. Some guys have their desks in the warehouse area, one new guy just got a laptop on top of a teeny weeny desk and he got some filing cabinets so he had some more surface area.

So we bought the place next door, woot! It's way bigger and has room for expansion. We are still right next door. Our servers are still there, the cafeteria is there (I will reiterate, wednesday's 'Thanksgiving Lunch' was amazing, loved the stuff, go Tom!), and the big conference rooms are there. The new building has plenty of desk room, but not much space for a conference room or anything.

My stuff is mostly all packed, expect that I'm helpdesk so I'm not sure how that will work. I'll be working till everyone else is moved and setup and then I think I'll finally move. I hope it doesn't rain. We're just walking our stuff over cuz it's so close.

ZOMG i'm so excited and nervous. I hope it's awesome. I'm sure it will be. We will make it awesome, go Provinet! And to top it off, maybe I'll eat a salad tomorrow and like it. Maybe. It's possibly. Probably.

So I'm gonna go watch Clerk 2 the Documentary till I fall asleep. I'm going to wake up, move into a brand new office, and then hang out with Mike and Kimberly saturday. Today really sucked, but hopefully the next few days will make up for it!

2010-07-08T18:45:00.000-07:00

Jim and I have discovered the most amazing entertaining show. It's called You're Cut Off. Jim and I call it 'that rich bitch show'. ::giggle::

Ok, so I'm flipping through the channels and see a buncha rich ladies complaining cuz their credit cards don't work. The guy they're yelling at looks like he's about to flip, but he just tells them 'Everything will be answered if you go into the room behind me.' So they go in, and theres a lady and a tv. They are part of a reality show, where their dads/husbands/whoever cut off their credit cards and try to make them grow the hell up.

They get driven to a normal suburban house in a minivan, and forced to open bring one bag out of all their luggage into the house. And they are astounded by the box of wine, they constantly complain about how this girl is a whore cuz she's 'new money'. Zomg it's awesome and makes me giggle so much.

I don't know why I enjoy this one more than any other reality show. Usually reality shows are boring, just people bitching a lot. But to watch these rich girls get shoved into a normal middle class life is just so Awesome!!

The last episode they made them take off their makeup for a photoshoot. ZOMG they were freaking out. So awesome.

VH1 has all the epis. I highly recommend it. Especially drinking cheap beer on the couch with friends, for better laughing with.

2010-06-21T14:30:00.000-07:00

I'm sitting here waiting for Jim to finish work. I get to play on his laptop. It's nice.

Today was kinda awful. Busy, mostly because ever call was urgent. Starting off busy and I was just off all day.

The weekend was fun. Didn't get to visit Michael and Kimberly, but it was still good. Kinda weird in the middle cuz Jim and I were like "Uh...so we have nothing to do now in Indiana." But Ben called me and I drove past that HORRIBLE AWFUL OLD CARLOT to see the house he's fixing up. It's small-ish, but the yard goes back and back forever. You could like build another house back there.

And we got to take my mom out to Outback for a late mothers day meal. The burned my steak but were nice and got me a new one and I don't think they spit in it. The waiter talked to Jim about Modern Warfare and Halo like the whole time. It made me feel left out, I mean, I'm a gamer girl, I'm supposed to be able to talk about all that stuff. But yuck to multiplayer fps's, so I guess that's my choice.

We got to go to BuyMeToys.com behind the mall. It was awesome, they have like a 4 foot tall statue of a Princess Leah from one of the cartoons. So many figs, and so many comics! I found some cool fairytale/fable ones that I wanted to buy, and a section on books turned into comics! They had Ender's Game and Dark Tower and... something else... that was famous. I forget. And they're making True Blood into a comic! Weird, but cool. I also found some comics from Angel, the Buffy spin-off. I glanced through once and it was just straight from the show. Dialog from the show, same stuff. I thought they were continuing the story through the comics, not just repeating it. Seems really odd and off to me for some reason. I mean, it's not like a book w/out visuals or anything, it was a tv show!

What else. I'm very tired lately. Something feels kinda broke in my head and I don't know how to fix it. But I will eventually. If I pretend I'm strong long enough, it'll be true, right? Right-o!

Sooo. Hmm. Now I shall play JayIsGames.com stuffs till it's time to go home. And I might convince Jim to get Arby's on the way home.... it sounds so yummy.

2010-06-08T17:26:00.000-07:00

I am blogging in the left window while the right windows is showing Netflix.

So it was a weird week-beginning. Sunday night I went to woot-stock. It was amazing. First it was neat cuz we had JUST went to Park West last wednesday to see Evelyn Evelyn. The waitress recognized us even. It was cool cuz I didn't have to drive or worry about the directions or anything. I just got to chill in the car and chat and play Phoenix Wright. All at once.

The wootstock itself was awesome. Wil Wheaton, Adam Savage, Paul and Storm. The 30+ minute Pirate song was awesome and amazing. All of them were awesome and I screamed the loudest for when Wil Wheaton told a story about Rocky Horror. Damn I need to go out and see it at a midnight showing of that finally.

The intro to Bolt is distracting me from typing.

So that was great. Didn't get out till like 1, didn't get to sleep till like 3 or something, and I had to go to work in the morning. But I was FINE when I work up! I was sleepy but manageable. I got a McDonalds frappe and some egg mcmuffins on the way into work. I choked a little on part of an egg mcmuffin but after horrible painful coughing I was fine. And then I get to work... and it all just falls apart. I have... a surprising female visit. And it like KILLS me. I've had stuff like this, but it never affected me THIS much. I was able to go home like 2 hours later once more people were in the office and everything was figured out. I felt like I was shaking, like on the edge of a break down. The receptionist was nice and asked me how I was doing and I almost started crying. I called Jim on the way home and DID cry. I went home and figured out when I could see the Doc 'n all that, and everyone told me I was fine. But it still took me hours to fully calm down, I couldn't think straight at all. I can't help feeling bad for missing work but I know I would have totally fucked up a call or something, I really wasn't mentally there anymore, I was somewhere in the corner crying.

So. Ya. Break down. Scary.

I'm mostly better. I still kinda feel it in the back of my head and I'm hoping I can somehow get that to go away.

Today was good. I actually felt like I made some good progess in the Dev room for once instead of just feeling lost.

In other good news: I beat Phoenix Wright 3. It was awesome. Loves the last case and it's craziness and how I had no idea how it would fit together. Very very good. And now I'm officially done w/ all the stuff Kimberly lent me, woot!

Now I shall relax on the couch and watch Bolt. I hope it's good.

PS: Stride Shift bubblegum has a weird texture and doesn't work very well for bubble blowing. You are informed.

2010-06-03T21:12:00.000-07:00

I am going to blog. I promised I would blog tonight so I will.

Went to a concert yesterday. I liked it, the Evelyn Evelyn show was awesome, the twins were fabulous and hilarious and deadly. Sxip was amazing (I think it's Skip? I still don't know how to say that...). In fact, I"m going to youtube one of his songs for while I type this...

Wiki says it's Skip.

I was worried that AFP and Webley wouldn't be coming out alone but after the twins were down we had a short intermission. Then Jason Webley came out and we got to be the orchestra for him! I wish they could have played longer, it was great singing along with Jason (I was part of the 'violin' side of the audience, we fought the brass side, I think we lost though, Violins are high pitched!). And then Amanda came running down from the top of the audience holding red wine and they went right into Icarus. AHHH I love that song. And then she played and talked and it was wonderful and magical. I liked Evelyn Evelyn, but I love seeing AFP pounding that keyboard, it's just so INTENSE!

What else.... the drive home was stressful. I was happy and then we had just a few minutes of being lost and I just started freaking out. Chicago driving scares me SO MUCH, just being there and being scared of being lost freaks me out. I'm sorry Jim, thank you for dealing with me.

Tonight I was pretty crazy too. I'm stressed and depressed more lately. I think it's all the Dev stuff at work. I need to deal w/ that better.

So this weekend we have guests! We started the cleaning process, I'm pretty sure it'll be ok. Wonder how much I should plan or just go w/ the flow.

My brother graduated High School!! I didn't get to go to the actual ceremony (c'mon, its thursday and like 2 hours away, I gots to work tomorrow people!) but I'm still proud of Sean. Still totally thought he'd get his ass kicked the moment he walked into public school, but guess he got through it!

Now I willl.... Ooh, I will go try to finish the last case of Phoenix Wright so I can give it back to Kimberly when she comes up.

Ok, I was trying to remember a lyric from an AFP song that I really liked and thought was poignant while driving earlier and I couldn't so now I'm watching random evelynevelyn fan vids. The mom one is the best.

Concert Tonight

2010-06-02T15:17:00.000-07:00

I am going to blog tonight. And tomorrow. And friday. Dammit.

Zomg so much cool stuff lately. Went to Jazz Show. The I'm A Benzik song was hilarious even if I couldn't understand the words.

Jim and I went to BD's the other day, and to Ikea afterwards. We found a cool couch that also becomes a bed in a nifty way, but someone at work say they'd heard that Ikea stuff is neat but doesn't last for years and years. So... dunno what I'ma do there.

The ps3 conked out. I need to return ff13 to Sieb at work, cuz I keep forgetting to grab it. It wasn't in the ps3, I was trying out my Chulip game when it stopped working. Chulip is weird, you have to go around and become friends with everyone and kiss them. I kissed an Onion Lady. I had to wait till she stopped having an onion head, cuz apparantly that means she's angry? Very odd but interesting.

I started the latest Star Ocean on the xbox. It's neat. I wouldn't say it's drawing me in, but it's not boring me yet at least.

Started watching something called John Doe on hulu. Cancelled after season 1, but it looks neat.

Still no interest in Lost. Too... brain heavy!

Jim went to the dentist today and they did horrible things to his mouth but his teeth look much cleaner! And next week he's going back to start on the cavities he has I guess. (probably a number too large for mortals to contain).

And we went to the Swap Meet over the weekend and it was kinda cool, even though I hate all the stupid repetitive shops. And we gots some stuffs. I forget what....we got those hanger thingys that help you organize your closet, and a cool little red dragon statue.

And tonight I get to go see Evelyn Evelyn!!!!!!!!!! And Amanda Fucking Palmer, and Jason Webley. And Sxip Shirley too, I'm sure he will be awesome though I don't know much about him.

In fact we should go. But Jim is playing Magic on xbox so I will continue to type until he finishes this game.

What eeeeeelse.... work is fine. Busy a lot. We have a new lead so it's cool seeing all the stuff we're planning to do to improve everything. Though I think I come off as annoying cuz a lot of time they are like 'So we're gonna do it this way...' and I'm all like 'but, but, why? look, it causes this and this and this and makes this a huge waste! we should do it this way or stay the way its now'. And then meetings happen. But I like meetings, especially if we figure it out in the end.

Oooooh gah, work, oh ya.... so this week (or last week? I need to grow a sense of time) I made my first big mistake. That they had to spend almost all day fixing. I felt (still feel, trying not to beat myself up) HORRIBLE and everyone was really nice about it and told me it was just a mistake but I really truly felt like crying. Uuuuugh. I know, everyone makes mistakes, it's still killing meeeee.

And as a pre-bday-ilikeyou gift Jim bought me a Strawberry planter! One of those bags that hangs from a balcony. Took a while, but we got it full of dirt and baby strawberry plants. I hope they grow! I tend to have the opposite of a green thumb, so I'm nervous.

Jim won his magic game, and got a new card, woo!

Off to the scariness of Chicago for food and music and love, WOOOOOOOOOOOO!

2010-04-30T18:50:00.000-07:00

Sitting in the dark. Listening to Amanda Palmer's latest free song (it makes me happy).

I feel like singing loudly and dancing and spinning and laughing. Like... I want to be drunk but not on alcohol.

Ok I lied. The tv is on and I'm watching Top Model. I love the pictures. I love the crazy hair and makeup and outfits. I love the photos. The drama is bleh and typical reality show meh.

Right now it my mood that I am missing something, that there is something magical and wonderful just out of my reach and I can't get it and I don't know how to reach out and grab it. I think I will turn up the speakers and listen to more of the lovely Amanda. I'm so excited to see her with the twins in a few months.

2010-04-28T20:14:00.000-07:00

I'm not titling this. I can never think of a good title.

My computer scares me. A friend played w/ the settings, it worked for like 5 hours straight, then (after he left) it started bsod'ing every 20 minutes or so. For the next day or two. I mostly left it off.

So I changed some settings back. And it's been on since 6am or so with no issues. I am nervous and scared of being hopeful that it will work.

I keep wanting to put up all my pics on Picasa. And I love how Picasa will 'watch' folders and upload stuff or rename it and all that. But if my comp breaks again, all the 'linking' will be for nothing and make me sad. So I don't want to because I'm nervous. At least I'm hoping that's why, maybe I'm just lazy, who knows.

Today had a weird 'vibe' but it's hard to describe why.

Oh yea, my hair has highlights now! They look blonde, but the guy who did them called them caramel. Hard to tell, I'm inside my head and can't see my hair so I don't know how it looks!! I've been told it's good. I feel a little odd for dying it. I always wanted to dye it something weird, non-natural. I don't like the whole 'fake your color to look like something else'. Kind of related why I don't like makeup. I maybe be overweight and all that, but I hate the idea of faking it up to look better. I want to look better for real.

Related: I did TaeBo the other day. Finally. It was hard. I kinda wanted to faint at the end, like it was hard to breathe. Jim says the euphoria people feel when they exercise comes after it hurts that much. Really? Cuz, da-amn.

I shall append my Grace In Small Things notes here. Five happy things today:
1) Talking during lunch
2) Feeling like I'm on top of things at work
3) Jim in a tank top. I likes.
4) Talking until we understand
5) Blogging again

Pretty Words is a magnificent title

2010-04-22T19:56:00.000-07:00

So I was going to go lay in bed and play Kimberly's Phoenix Wright game while Jim finished the God of War ps3 demo, when I thought "No! I shall blog, I shall!"

The house is so messy. I should clean. And I shall. Tomorrow. And buy yummies for the weekend.

Maybe I should start making lists like Kimberly does. I could try to actually USE my google task lists. Or try that thing where you clean half hour each day and that's it until it's habit and everything is already clean. I need to do that. I need to be able to yell at myself.

So we have a ps3! (and it's skipping a little during the god of war demo and that totally scares me). And I don't need more games to play but now I have SO MANY MORE!

Cooking Mama is weird. I dislike the shopping game, it's weird. I like Gardening Mama. Crafting Mama sounds entertaining... for 10 bucks or less. Whenever it comes out.

I wantto make a custom database where I can store all my games and books and movies and it would be sweet and awesome and mine.

Mind jumping all over. Jim's parents got me a vase w/ a rose and.. those little white flowers, baby's breath maybe? It's very very pretty, I like the rose. I should take pictures.

I should move all my pics to Picasa, finally.

Most of this blog is just thinking of stuff I should do, that doesn't sound relaxing.

What did I do today. Worked. Rooocked it. It's so great being confident that I rock at my job. And knowing that other people would AGREE with me instead of saying I'm being rude or boasty. Came home. Jim and I fought but now it's all better. Yea for fighting till we talk it out and not giving up! I hate the idea of going to bed angry or feeling like I should have kept talking till I felt better. Maybe that's selfish, I dunno.

Jim and I watched True Blood, and it's just as cool as the first time I saw it. Epi 2 now. Jim made this weird burger/bacon/shredded spicy pork combo that he said was as awesome as the Double Decker thingy from KFC. And totally healthy because it was Turkey Bacon.

I wanna be a lawyer, ima go do that now!

Birthday

2010-04-17T17:17:00.000-07:00

My birthday is, like, really soon. This is weird to me.

I think I always get tense/argumentative around holidays. I don't know if it's the social situations, nervousness about that whole 'oh ya, i AM getting older' or what. I just tend to be more likely to start arguments and cry instead of talking calmly. I should apologize to Jim again. Not that what we talked about wasn't worthy of being discussed, just that I didn't stay calm enough during it all.

I missed a social activity today. I'm disappointed in myself for missing it; I should have just bucked up and gone.

Jim is gonna get a ps3. Not for me, though he thought about that. He wants to tear it apart and hax it up, and he knows if he got one for me I wouldn't really want that. So he's going to get me something else and get the PS3 for himself (well I like to think for us).

I hope he does something special on my birthday. I'm nervous to ask him to make it special, but I'm afraid he'll forget.

What else to say. I'm excited to do more at work monday, I get to work on less frustrating projects soon. The current project I'm working on could probably be finished in about 5 minutes by our lead programmer, because it's combining some new codes/versions that we don't currently use, and I don't know the syntax and it's difficult to figure out how to just get the first set of the website to work. One of the other coders told me that he gets how frustrating it is for me; he just adds and changes the current system, he doesn't have to setup the database connections and drivers and all that.

I think I'm going to watch Glee while Jim is out buying me a gift. And hopefully I will remember to do my Grace in Small Things posts, so I can think about the happy before I go to sleep.

Grace in Small Things

2010-04-14T17:45:00.000-07:00

1. Feeling accomplished at work
2. Feeling close to my friends
3. White flowers on the tree outside my apartment
4. A company that prints xkcd comics on their promotional tshirts (Barracuda love)
5. Talking until it's better

trying

2010-04-13T15:01:00.000-07:00

So I'm going to try to blog. I don't know what to say that isn't just babbly and blah.

My birthday is coming up. It makes me nervous, I don't know what I want. Usually there are games, but I have so many games/books that I already have that I don't have time to play/read. So I don't really have the urge for more.

I want... new furniture. A yard. To strip the antique store furniture and make it look eclectic and personal. I want my Evelyn Evelyn album/swag to come in the mail faster. I want more plants. I want more crafty things. I want time to be crafty. I want the tree outside the window to get the pretty white flowers that I love so much quickly, and I want them to stay longer.
I want to listen to this Evelyn Evelyn song again. I want to scream my Amanda Palmer songs loudly even if the car next to me has it's window down too and might hear me so I should be quieter now.
I want to lose weight. I want to be stylish and thin and not afraid. I want to be able to wear the clothes I own. I want to like salads. I want to cook more. I want a better stove and refrigerator. I want to live in a house that I can take care of all myself. I want to live in apartments forever so I never have to worry about repairs. I want to have a dog. I want to stop thinking of the cats as furry messy poop-factories.
I want to master stream-of-consciousness writing (I think I have that down though). I want to be loved. I want pretty candles. I want to paint and draw and make my walls ephemeral works of arts that will disappear when I move out.
I want you to read my blog. I don't want anyone to read my blog because it's personal and please don't fire me just cuz I'm a little crazy. I want a ps3 and Heavy Rain and FF13 and God of War 3. I want to sit and play games all day because escapism wins. I want to sell all my games and use the money and time to start selling crafts on etsy and start a personal website. I want to go on chat roulette and make meaningful connections with people, and avoid all the nudity. I want to talk to old friends and not be nervous and shy. I want to use facebook more, but not play that silly farm game. I want to kill my facebook and twitter and all evidence of me on the internets.
I want to be something meaningful and needed. I want to be completely alone and independent. I want to find someone who feels something when they read Sandman, see Firefly, or hear Amanda Palmer like I do. I need someone who isn't a crazy internet fanatic, someone real, to share these things that mean so much to my heart.
I want to be deeply religious and truly believe that I will always be taken care of by this supportive loving being. I want to be a hard-core atheist who is always on the sure for the utter bare ugly truth.
I want to write more. I want to write beautiful descriptions of dancing or magic or fire. I want to dance like they do in my favorite youtube video.

I want everything to be easy and I want to not be mocked for wanting it.

I think I could do this again

2010-04-05T20:37:00.000-07:00

So. Blogging. Uh, I guess I'll do my 5 things o the day cuz I dunno what else to talk about

1. not hating work after i got there, though it was hella busy
2. awesome moods
3. cleaning up my gmail inbox
4. watching castle on tv while reading python book on my psp during commercials
5. being more confident about tomorrow than last week

so i can go to sleep noooooooow?

GIST for 12/14/09

2009-12-14T19:22:00.001-08:00

1) Starting Grace in Small Things up again
2) cooking a yummy pork roast
3) extra sleep
4) wrapping presents all purty
5) finishing up shopping for Jim (yea for all internet purchases)

GIST for 10/23/09

2009-10-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

1. Finally figuring out why I don't like The Office: I love Pam and Jim too much to watch them be around such idiots
2. Finding cheapo but awesome clothes at the thrift store
3. The sound of rain
4. Starting to use meebo again
5. Looking ahead and knowing I have good weekends coming

cross-posted at GIST Ning

GIST for 10/18/09

2009-10-18T20:48:00.000-07:00

1. The end to a great awesome beautiful weekend
2. A lazy day where I still got stuff done
3. Pleasing the Metal Gods (Brutal Legend ftw)
4. Figuring out a way to embellish my pirate costume even more w/ stuff I already own
5. Finally WiiFit-ing again

cross-posted at GIST Ning

GIST for 10/17/09

2009-10-18T20:44:00.000-07:00

1. Halloween shopping completion (homemade costume ftw)
2. Giving an awesome early birthday present away (and I get to play it too!)
3. Excited secrets
4. Getting 2 little plaid skirts in the last few days, finally!
5. RahXephon mistake equals really cheap anime set on dvd

cross-posted at GIST Ning

GIST for 10/11/09

2009-10-11T19:37:00.000-07:00

1. Mint oreo's for breakfast
2. Imaging what I would do if I won a million dollars
3. AMVs
4. Old photos
5. Appreciating the past but not missing it

cross-posted at GIST Ning

GIST for 10/10/09

2009-10-11T19:35:00.000-07:00

1. Gettings tons of progress in Assassin's Creed
2. Making corned beef with beer at home
3. Looking for 20 minutes through old Sailor Moon manga images
4. Organizing computer files, making them all pretty finally
5. Staying in all day (sorry Jonathon Coultan!)

cross-posted at GIST Ning

GIST for 10/9/09

2009-10-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

1. Loud lunches
2. Random halloween store trips
3. Yellow leaves still on trees
4. Gradients
5. Seeing showing on TV instead of Hulu for once

cross-posted at GIST Ning

GIST for 10/8/09

2009-10-09T05:41:00.000-07:00

1. Free leftover breakfast, with bacon
2. Salad bar twice in a day
3. Big pretty steak
4. My very own Domo
5. Surprises

cross-posted at GIST Ning

GIST for 10/7/09

2009-10-08T04:46:00.000-07:00

1. Sleeping in those extra 15 minutes
2. Having a great mock interview at college
3. Somehow not spilling anything on my shirt all day
4. Fulfilled oreo desired at the grocery store
5. Cheap quick homemade food

GIST for 10/6/09

2009-10-07T05:55:00.000-07:00

1. Extra short class time
2. Unintentional naps
3. Velvety shirts
4. The beanbag of awesome
5. Patton Oswalt

GIST for 10/2/09

2009-10-03T08:24:00.000-07:00

1. Gir earrings
2. Being told I don't sound like a n00b on the phone
3. a fresh donut right off the line
4. acceptance
5. realizing that yes, I do own Shortbus and could watch it again

GIST for 9/30/09

2009-10-01T06:21:00.000-07:00

1. Being busy at the new job
2. Hog Wild food
3. Being domestic
4. Rearranging the closet to be more efficient(i like organizing almost too much)
5. No blue screen of death's for more than a day now! (hope I didn't just jinx it)

GIST for 9/27/09

2009-09-28T13:01:00.000-07:00

1. sleeping in
2. simon pegg
3. buffy mini-marathon (2 epi's TOTALLY counts)
4. orange roses
5. thinking about getting a drink at the bar and not feeling awkward about it

GIST for 9/26/09

2009-09-27T17:53:00.000-07:00

1. Talking about religion randomly with someone

2. Catching up on hulu shows (Castle and Glee!)

3. Wearing a skirt again

4. Free bagels

5. Finally trying to sell stuff at a pawn shop

GIST for 9/25/09

2009-09-26T13:18:00.000-07:00

1. End of first week at new job!
2. Being told "I'm a fan of Robin"
3. Free breakfast
4. Seeing Woot-Off lights
5. Feeling busy and loving it

GIST for 9/24/09

2009-09-24T19:18:00.000-07:00

1. delicious cheap lemon chicken with that one vegetable that starts w/ 'A' that I can't remember

2. answering the phones at my new job

3. sharing xkcd

4. ordering pizza

5. contentedness (is that a word?)

GIST for 9/20/09

2009-09-21T07:52:00.000-07:00

1. looking goth and sexy
2. being told my style is a weird mix of goth and hippy and loving that!
3. trying deep fried oreos (they were ok)
4. looking at crafts and imagining selling my own stuff one day
5. an incredibly awesome weekend

My car is mad that I won't let it die

2009-09-19T06:34:00.000-07:00

So guess what happened today. Just guess, from the blog title, go on.

So I'm driving to work. My car sucks, it's loud, but it goes. I took a risk and didn't fill the radiator this morning because yesterday I filled it to full before I went out. So I figured it would be fine, maybe I'd fill it before I left work.

I'm driving and I go over a bump and hear a really weird noise. Metal-y. Scary.

I keep going. It's fine. My car just suWHAT IS THAT NOISE?

I pulled into a gas station and turned it off and just sat there terrified. Turned it back on, and it's still extra loud. I pull out, and I can still hear that weird metal noise. I can feel something moving under the car.

I circles the gas station a little and then just went home. Yea, I'm late, and it's saturday, and noone will be there one time, but MY CAR WANTS TO DIE!

It's punishing me for being late on all those oil changes. I know it.

I went home and looked under my car, and theres this pipe that runs along it, underneath. It's now broken. Oh god.

So I get another car and drive to work. Freaked out still. It has to be my muffler right? If it was anything else my car would have just exploded in the middle of the road. Body parts and blood mixed with oil splattered all over the road.

I can't duct tape this together? I've been told this many times. But it's just a muffler, I can last a month without that. My car will just be extra loud and scary. It's the car's way of yelling at me for not letting it die yet.

GIST for 9/18/09

2009-09-19T06:04:00.000-07:00

1. Napping on the couch
2. Purging clothes
3. Drug tests not going as bad as I'd thought (peeing in a cup still sucks)
4. Piano music and chores
5. Surprisingly hilarious movie (The Gamers: Dorkness Rising)

everyone who plays or knows anything about how D&D works should see that movie, it's really really funny

GIST for 9/17/09

2009-09-18T03:56:00.000-07:00

1. All the congrats on my new job
2. Walking to the new place I'll work
3. Not getting shy while talking in front of people
4. the xkcd book
5. spontanious subway meals

GIST for 9/16/09

2009-09-16T20:10:00.000-07:00

1. a skirt
2. have 3 jobs at once
3. being invited to go out and meet new people
4. reassurance
5. relaxing

GIST for 9/15/09

2009-09-16T20:08:00.000-07:00

1. zomg I got a job!
2. feeling tomorrows stresses falling away
3. being brave enough to ask for a gift
4. getting a frickin' awesome gift
5. gorgonzola gnocchi

GIST for 9/14/09

2009-09-15T08:49:00.000-07:00

1. Cheesecake
2. Steak
3. Craft ideas
4. Reaching for my hand
5. Stolen flowers

GIST for 9/13/09

2009-09-14T05:00:00.000-07:00

1. Movie theatre popcorn
2. Seeing family
3. Hanging out with a friend in his awesome apt
4. Kerasotes theatre
5. That beer w/ the orange mohawk guy on it

GIST for 9/12/09

2009-09-13T04:13:00.000-07:00

1. Catching up on the dishes
2. Clean house
3. Finishing Watchmen
4. Candles
5. Being in a Garmin

GIST for 9/11/09

2009-09-12T07:19:00.001-07:00

1. Quizno's salads with french dressing
2. Quizno's broccoli soup bread bowls
3. Watchmen
4. The end of the work week
5. Seeing the future chaos and confusion and being excited

GIST for 9/9/09

2009-09-09T19:51:00.000-07:00

1. Eating a salad and not hating it
2. Planning interviews
3. Birds in a parking lot
4. Abstract trees
5. Walking to the gas station for snacks

GIST for 9/8/09

2009-09-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

1. Adventure
2. Dressing up for no reason
3. Naps
4. A breeze from outside
5. Making weekend plans

Gears of War first impressions

2009-09-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

(feel the power of the spoilers)
I'm currently borrowing Gears of War. I'd heard such great things about this game: it was awesome, really fun, and a brand new franchise. Though lately if a game is released that doesn't become a franchise it tends to be looked down upon (but that horrible trend is another post).

I was very excited when I started Gears of War. Yea the characters look weird and steroid-pumped, but it's a style. I like games that have a style and don't just try to emulate real life. I live in real life; I want to play somewhere else. The story seemed very thin at first. It's a war. I'm in prison and some guy got me out. Okay. Well, wait, who am I? Fenix? Oh god that's lame. Am I going to rise from the ashes now? But whatever, it's not as bad as it could be.

So I walk around and the controls seem okay. Tutorial time seems to go okay, until the firefight at the end.

I like fps games, I just like them single player. I don't have the desire to go online and fight against other people for points; I want to be in a story, experience it, and then move on to another story. I like Half-Life, and Prey, and most PC fps's. I'm not the best, but I can strafe and get a head shot occasionally. But console games tend to not have strafing, most of them have auto-target and lots of armor.

Gears of War doesn't. You hide behind a bit of rock, you pop your head up and it feels like it takes forever to target the bad guys. I haven't yet increased my control stick speed, but I'm not sure it will help. I crouch behind a rock, poke my head up with makes me completely vulnerable, and have to maneuver this little target to the bad guys. I'm very slow with a control stick and I miss my mouse/keyboard. It feels slow and if I speed it up it will just get harder to pinpoint anyone.

After many deaths I finally am getting more used to it, but I still feel a little frustrated. It's more about me growing up on mouse/keyboards instead of console controllers than the game I think. I read a gameFaq to get some tips and got a sad review from the writer. He described shooters as games where you stand there and shoot and try to kill the other guy before your health is gone. What? I would hate a shooter like that. Maybe that's why I can't get into Halo very much. This writer said that Gears of War was so good because you had to hide and shoot the bad guys, instead of standing there and shoot them. If this is the philosophy that people have now regarding shooters, then I don't really want to play any of the new shooters. That isn't fun to me, which might be why it's hard for me to get into Gears of War.

But it is getting better, easier, less cheap feeling. I have so much experience with games, yet I have no patience with this. A lot annoyance: Why can't I swap out my pistol? I don't want to use it, please let me drop it on the ground. Every time I have to swap a shotgun for the Hammer of Dawn I swear loudly, because I could keep it on me if I could just drop this stupid pistol.

I've finished Act 1, and I've been playing the whole game on Hardcore.

GIST for 9/7/09

2009-09-08T04:39:00.000-07:00

1. Lazy days
2. Video games
3. Actually eating onions
4. Using little hand weight during cutscenes
5. Calmness

GIST for 9/6/09

2009-09-07T06:33:00.000-07:00

1. Jambalaya with lots of ham in it
2. Juicy homemade filet steaks
3. Being terrified before a fair ride, but then its actually just fun
4. Closing my eyes on the last ride
5. Explosions in the sky of wonderful colors

GIST for 9/5/09

2009-09-06T08:22:00.000-07:00

1. Being enthusiastic
2. Home made lunchables
3. Green tea with raspberries
4. Trying
5. Stolen bites of ice cream

GIST for 9/4/09

2009-09-05T04:13:00.000-07:00

1. Finding out my car will last a few months
2. Sending off an email about another job
3. Dressing up
4. Pigtails
5. Japanese grills

GIST for 9/1/09

2009-09-02T05:42:00.000-07:00

1. Singing while doing the dishes
2. Loud music in the car
3. Naps
4. Practicing writing
5. Pictures of the kitties

Persona 4 review

2009-09-01T13:20:00.001-07:00

I've been thinking about posting reviews, and I think that sometimes you just want to tell a friend what the game is about and whether they would like it. So the first part of this is a rough summary, which is a short preview of the game, just to try to see if you would be interested in this game. Very little personal thoughts, mostly just if it's fun and what kind of battle system it uses.

It's such a nice feeling beating a game, knowing that I completed it. Sometimes I think I just like the feeling of completing more than the game, but that's way too deep for today. I have now played through Persona 4 completely, and in only 89 hours! That is about the same that I took for Persona 3.

Rough, spoiler-free summary:
Story: Is good. Anime-ish and serious and funny sometimes too. Interesting with some nice thoughtful and philosophical themes.
Battle: A riff on standard j-rpgs. Turn based with four characters per battle, some are meant to be AI controlled. Battles rarely felt unfair, dungeons are random but still fun. Spell names are odd (bufu = ice, agi = fire) but doesn't take too long to get used to. Stats are determined by your persona (a little like GFs from ff8). Slight pokemon collect-them-all feeling, but usually you can combine your personas to make a new stronger one, so you don't drag one along the whole game.
Social: You spend time building relationships and gaining 'Knowledge' and 'Courage', while juggling school, midterms, and of course the fighting. It's put together well, and you don't feel like your playing a weird Japanese relationship game.

Longer, babbly spoiler-free talks:
Story:
Persona 4 has a pretty good plot, not bland and just a little confusion. We have some anime sequences sprinkled around, and you can make some personal conversation choices to define yourself. The game is divided into "I'm in a dungeon and I'm going to fight things" and something close to a life simulator. You have stats like Knowledge and Courage that you need to level up for certain conversations to happen. You can complete the game without improving any of these 'social' stats, but it's a fun component. For example, if you see something weird looking in the fridge and eat it, you courage goes up. Then you might end up going to bed earlier because your stomach hurts, but hey, maybe you were about to go to bed anyway.
During the day you attend school, and afterwords you have friends to talk to. If you spend time with your friends, it will help you in battle, and if you spend so much time that your 'social link level' with that person maxes out (10 levels) then you get access to something special. It's a pretty good system, and I enjoyed juggling my friends and trying to become closer to all of them.

Battle system:
The battle system is semi-standard j-rpg. You stand there, they stand there, you all wait and take turns to bonk each other on the heads. Some of the differences are that Persona 4 emphasizes that YOU are the main character. You name him, he never speaks, and you are always in control of him. In fact, if he dies, then the game ends. Immediately. Doesn't matter if you have a zillion revival beads in your bag, the game is over. Now this isn't as horrible as it sounds, it's just another strategy point to consider. The battle will have 4 people total (one of them always being the main character) and there are a variety of AI options for the other people. Default is AI (and I thought it was rather good and left it almost all the time, unless it was a boss fight) but there are specific types of AI and direct control also. The dungeons are random (almost completely) so every time you go through a level it will look a little different.
There are magical elements that enemies are weak or strong against, and this is where most of the strategy for the game comes in. If an enemy is weak to Ice, then if you cast ice on them they fall on their ass. It doesn't really slow them down, but if you manage to knock over all the enemies you get a chance to have everyone run in and have a big brawl against everything. It will causes (usually) massive damage to all enemies, and generally will win the fight. Sometimes it will be insanely easy to knock them all down, and sometimes not. Some enemies don't have a weakness, but there is always a chance to knock them down with a critical attack. This makes the battles much more interesting, since you have to think about more than just 'i hit them and they die, uh-huh'.
The other side of battles are Personas. You equip them and they give you almost all your stats and attacks. You can switch to a different one during your turn, which means you can go from a hardcore ice-magic user to a strong man in a second. It's a little like a pokemon collect them all game, because you can take personas and combine them to make a new one. There are tons of them in the game, and in fact I only had 85% of them when I finished. All your persona's are saved and you can spend money to bring back old ones whenever you can afford it.

Personal impressions (spoilers be here):
I liked it. I usually dislike games with random dungeons, because I feel like I'm grinding and I hates the grinding. But I also love themes, and each dungeon had a cute little thing. Plus even though I'd seen some of the same monster models in Persona 3, there were enough new ones to entertain me. They had less of the "we can cast insta death spells so we will, MWAHAHAHAH" stuff in this game, because there were some levels in Persona 3 that had tons of that and it was nerve-racking. It was rare that I was nervous about getting insta-killed. The final battle was WAY too easy though, my strategy was have everyone hit and while one person just healed. I mean, there wasn't anything else. I keep comparing it to Persona 3, because that final boss battle was HELL. I almost didn't think I had beat it, since it was only 2 forms with simple strategy.
Now I did beat the game 'early', since I had days in the game I could have used to improve social stuffs and instead I just beat it. I'm considering going back to improve more links and then beat it (plus game faqs told me there is a secret boss I can access!). Next time I play through the game (which will be in awhile, since I've been playing this since the end of April) I will load up my new game + and play it on expert. So, hmm, I don't really want to go back and fight the secret boss, but I guess new stuff unlocks if you do... but I don't wanna, I finished it, I don't wanna go back! I can't decide.
Story-wise, the game was great. Philosophical sometimes, and sometimes with standard anime wackiness. Plus I was really sad when they almost killed a certain character, even though I totally knew they were gonna at least kidnap, I didn't think they would kill her. But of course she came back. And talking to NPCs while time passed was interested, and of course all my social links were interesting too. The weapon shop was kinda weird, but it worked a little more smoothly than in Persona 3.

Overall, I liked Persona 3 more. More interesting story and dammit, shooting yourself in the head to cast spells is just amazing. But Persona 4 was almost as good. I was surprised how interesting the story was, and how the game juggles persona-collection, social leveling, and random dungeons. Very good, and highly recommended. And I totally want a Teddie Plushie.

Well, there's my first try at a review. I babbled too much. :(

GIST for 8/31/09

2009-08-31T20:04:00.001-07:00

1. Making another version of 'throw cans in pot and make meal' that was a success
2. Not hating onions
3. I beat Persona 4, a game I started just after I got it, on my birthday
4. Fear of trademarks
5. Finding out there shall be another yummy japanese grill excursion soon

GIST for 8/30/09

2009-08-31T03:20:00.000-07:00

1. Getting on the Wii-fit again
2. Sourdough bread with asiago cheese and cracked peppercorns
3. Skirts
4. Sunday laziness
5. Lighting 2 sticks of incense at once

GIST for 8/29/09

2009-08-30T05:47:00.000-07:00

1. Random cooking experiment success
2. Wandering around Trader Joe's
3. Surprises in the kitchen
4. Finding a really good game deal on Amazon.com
5. Knowing I'm finally going to own Shortbus

GIST for 8/28/09

2009-08-29T05:43:00.000-07:00

1. Cleaning up my google mail and lists finally
2. a motivating talk about jobs from a teacher
3. Steaaaak (even tho I totally shouldn't splurge so much)
4. Finding a bunch of hibachi grill restaurants around me
5. Persona 4

Juggling Games

2009-08-28T11:45:00.000-07:00

These are the games I'm trying to play (get through to the finish) concurrently:

Persona 4 - PS2, probably about 75% through it

Kingdom Hearts - PS2, already beaten this before, I'm about a 3rd through it on expert

Eternal Sonata - Xbox360, its fun but I want to concentrate on Persona 4 more, only going to this when I need a break from Persona

Rhythm Heaven - DS, I'm just stuck on a lvl and its frustrating

Phoenix Wright - DS, started this again while out, will be fun to go through it

Starcraft - PC, I will totally beat this, finally!

Company of Heroes - PC, a friend installed in on my PC and its fun, but it made my computer blue screen in the past so I'm reluctant to play it very often, and it will be lost when I install Win 7 again in the near future, so I doubt I'll get through it

Clock Tower 2 - PS, old old school horror game, I got past lvl 1 but lvl 2 is all zombies, I don't want to give up on it though

Cursed: The Eye of Isis (I totally had to look up the title) - Xbox 1, neat old horror game, kinda lame but it has some atmosphere

Dementium - DS, awesome fps survival horror on the DS of all things, its hard and easy to get lost though

Eternally on the backburner:

Getting all the recipes with a gold score in Cooking Mama 1 and 2
Going through all the levels in Rez on xbox 360
Eventually starting up Kingdom for Keflings again
Getting past the last hardest level in Elite Beat Agents

Well.. I think that's it. So, yea, it feels like a lot when I look at it like this. I need to stop juggling my games and just go through one until I'm done. Or maybe just an RPG and another game, since I like to always have an ongoing RPG.

2009-08-26T19:49:00.000-07:00

1. Confusing dreams
2. Rearranging/organizing things
3. Surprisingly entertaining food
4. Delicious food, even the vegetables!
5. Done with my finals

2009-08-25T19:20:00.000-07:00

1. Staying in my pajamas all day
2. Surprise slushies
3. talking about who i want to be when i grow up
4. reading the realmental blog
5. eating both pieces of red velvet cake

2009-08-25T04:39:00.000-07:00

1. making tacos for dinner
2. walking to the grocery store
3. a dolphin in a tree
4. blog ideas
5. buying red velvet cake and just remembering it's still in the fridge

2009-08-23T21:30:00.000-07:00

1. Random cooking
2. Finally going through the mail
3. Inglorious Bastards
4. Taking pictures of my food
5. Persona 4 & beauty pagents

2009-08-23T06:18:00.000-07:00

1. Playing Starcraft again
2. Getting help for my computer making me excited to fix it again
3. Late night trips to Walmart
4. Cheesy Popcorn
5. Using the balcony door instead of the air conditioner

Sometimes I begin this posts and have no idea what I could possibly say. It's early in the morning, I barely remember yesterday, and all that's in my head is the bad things. But after a minute so many thoughts come in that I have to decide what five I want to write down. It's... surprising how good my days are.

2009-08-22T08:18:00.000-07:00

1. the train ride to chicago
2. a huge gold door without a handle
3. the fountain that had a statue of someone reaching for something
4. new restaurants
5. random ballet in the park

2009-08-21T06:45:00.001-07:00

1. Driving in my car with my windows down
2. And a beautiful just-after-sunset sky
3. With ear-damaging loud rock music.
4. Throwing my metroid toy at everyone
5. Free pizza

2009-08-19T20:05:00.000-07:00

1. Trying a new restaurant (even though it sucked)
2. Getting a Delirium doll at a comic book store
3. Thinking of the beauty of the Sandman books
4. Finally calling a friend and arranging to borrow Watchmen tomorrow
5. Converting Sour Pinatas

2009-08-18T21:41:00.000-07:00

1. finally visiting that little store i drive by
2. walking
3. feeling pretty when i get dressed for work
4. feeling no guilt for doing my homework tomorrow instead of tonight
5. kitties

2009-08-17T04:54:00.000-07:00

1. having Dr Horrible's "Brand New Day" running through my head all night
2. making a plushie http://bit.ly/107iRl
3. wearing a new skirt that actually fits me that i like
4. lounging
5. thunder

2009-08-16T13:15:00.000-07:00

last one for yesterday. i will not fall behind, i will make writing a daily habit!

1. finally vacuuming
2. cheese soup
3. another cup of cheese soup
4. hanging out w/ an old friend all day
5. finding some old/good rpgs for relatively cheap

2009-08-14T21:19:00.000-07:00

1. Arby's
2. Catching up on RSS feeds
3. being lazy and enjoying it for once
4. simpsons poster
5. my couch

2009-08-14T04:19:00.000-07:00

1. Finding lots of good stuff while catching up on RSS feeds
2. Summerfest free food
3. Good conversations with unexpected people at unexpected times
4. Old random techno
5. i think the period of intense stress is over

2009-08-12T21:26:00.000-07:00

just finished a bout with depression. i think i won, barely, but i feel tired after the fight. i think it got in a good right hook.

Happy Things About Today:
1. Playing Persona 4 uninterrupted for awhile (I finished a dungeon!)
2. Examining myself and producing a letter that I think is good
3. Tooki the cat
4. The big green fluffy blanket in the family room
5. Listening to Jonathan Coulton, and feeling very calm

2009-08-12T05:50:00.001-07:00

last night i got hit by the sleep hammer, which is why this is about yesterday

1. feeling prepared for the day for once
2. finding out my new boss swears when frustrated, like normal people do
3. being told i act like a manager (in a good way)
4. burger king
5. discovering more about myself, whether good or bad

2009-08-10T20:19:00.000-07:00

1. Moving around the shelves and getting the house even better looking/organized
2. Feeling like I actually accomplished something today
3. Getting an email that I would be great for a job (even if I can't go fulltime there for awhile)
4. Potential scariness turning into a good, learning conversation
5. Love

2009-08-09T21:06:00.001-07:00

1. Watching more Spaced cuz Simon Pegg rocks
2. Starting a new game: Eternal Sonata
3. Finishing all my homework and quizzes early in the morning
4. Having Subway brought to me for lunch
5. A wondrous and awesome mid-day nap

2009-08-08T21:50:00.000-07:00

1. looking around for new ways to make my house prettier/more efficient and finding a shelf that works
2. apple crumb cake
3. restarting Phoenix Wright 1
4. hoping I'll end up buying all the rest of the Phoenix Wright games
5. discussions that help me learn about myself and the person I'm discussing with, w/out me getting sad

going titleless. here it goes.

enter title here. make it witty.

2009-08-07T21:52:00.001-07:00

1. Reconnecting with an old friend
2. 1 vs 100 gaming/penny arcade questions
3. buster bars
4. zomg i actually did my exercises this morning and tonight. am i skinny yet?
5. watching reefer madness: the musical songs on youtube while i exercise.

I have decided that my fav song from the musical is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tHWHFJTWEk4 (the domintrix song)
It will stick in my head weeks after I hear it.

The day after yesterday

2009-08-07T12:46:00.000-07:00

So I didn't blog last night. I got home and tried to watch Watchman but dammit it's long and I was tired so I stopped it and slept. So this is a mash of yesterday and today (so far).

1. Sharing peanut butter cookies
2. Piles of cheese on a platter
3. Coming home to coconut shrimp
4. The opportunity to play in Flash for money
5. Zomg I paid a credit card off, officially! WOOT!

Should have been posted last night

2009-08-06T05:46:00.000-07:00

1. Finally getting a replacement xbox
2. Not going to class because I know the teacher is sick
3. Home made dinner that I didn't completely screw up
4. Peanut butter cookie batter
5. Dollhouse deleted scenes

Today's about yesterday

2009-08-05T05:20:00.001-07:00

1. Interview about an internship/part time job that might work out
2. Free lunch
3. Buying skirts
4. Joss Whedon making me want to cry (A Spy in the House of Love ftw)
5. Plans to kill a credit card decided

Iron Chef

2009-08-03T20:49:00.000-07:00

1. BD's Grill, even though I added too much ginger
2. Finding a not-lost cat
3. Matting a local artist's Stewie drawing
4. Sending Google a cover letter that included a joke
5. Watching Dollhouse almost all day

Yesterdays thoughts

2009-08-03T04:51:00.000-07:00

1. Alsip's Street Fair
2. South Park mini-marathon
3. zomg I got my stupid lab to work and turned it in
4. lighting candles just because
5. getting pictures of a candle stub inside a bottle and feeling arty about it

Alsip's street fair was neat. I wonder if I'll ever sell cross-stitch there. If I sell it for real, do I need to worry about business-y stuff? I always get nervous about that kind of thing, taxes and licenses and I don't know what. Lots of jewelry there, lots of people make jewelry.

Old Jap Movies

2009-08-01T20:01:00.000-07:00

1. Watching Battle Royale for the first time in ages
2. Watching AFP find out about sockdreams.com
3. Wanting skirts and high socks
4. Being unsure if I'm drunk
5. Hugs

Happy Thoughts of the Day

2009-07-31T20:13:00.000-07:00

1. Eating a delicious burger at an unknown-to-me restaurant
2. Having a picture taken of me that I'm happy about
3. A flower in my hair
4. Nervous/excited fear about my first drunken weekend
5. Surprise shipments in the mail that I thought I wouldn't get till Monday

Living at the School

2009-07-30T15:31:00.000-07:00

1. Good honey mustard sauce
2. Doing my homework on time for once
3. Being told someone waited 3 days for me to fix their computer because they didn't trust anyone else
4. No, really, loving the above compliment
5. Wearing my cute hat in my cute hair

woot, 2 days in a row!

Grace in Small Things

2009-07-29T08:02:00.000-07:00

I read Schmutzie's blog and love the idea of Grace in Small Things, but I don't really want to join her social site. I want to just have a blog and then get depressed because no one reads it and then stop again. I mean I'm going to blog. Public Journal. Journalling is good.
I want to start many habits. I want to exercise every day, and I want to make a GIST entry every day. So here I go, trying this again, maybe I won't freak out and delete it in a few days like all my others.

Grace In Small Things: July 29th, a Wednesday
1. All the Squirrel on my balcony
2. Watching Castle on the couch with Hulu Desktop
3. Hulu
4. Brownies that are only partly ruined and not completely destroyed
5. Starting a game from the beginning even though I should play the ones I'm in the middle of

there. Just had to reach for that last one. Now, which of my horror games shall I play, mwahahahha.